Another downhill drop on the rollercoaster of my life...

Ever wondered why in the hell you can never overcome certain aspects of your personality that continually drive you insane? Ever wonder how in the hell someone else is supposed to get beyond those parts of your personality when you can't? Ever just want to close yourself off from the rest of the world because no one understands you? Because you feel like you've already unintentionally closed the rest of the world out. Because you feel like you've lost all ability to reappear in the world. Because even though you are aching to feel accepted, you'd much rather be alone. How often do we let other people become our identity? How often do those people somehow let us down? How often to we return to our feelings of inadequacy? Do you ever loss all sense of trust for the God who is supposed to guide us? Or is that just me?